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Month: October 2020 (page 1 of 1)

Daisy – cover

I made a cover of Daisy by Ashnikko. I think Ashnikkos songs are super cool, and a bit weird, but life isn’t fun without some weird. Tell me what you you think!

Daisy cover by Equate

Reading My Book!

Today I decided to do something a little bit different. Reading the introduction and first chapter of my book. You might already be aware I’m writing a book since I posted about it, but I deleted that post, and here is a better post. I will say! I thought it would be a really clever idea to read the introduction and the first chapter to make it more interesting and “professional”. This is a Narrative poetry book. I love poetry and I love fictional stories, so I thought this would be a perfect combination. Before you listen, just for your knowledge, I am sick, so I apologize for my voice being a little bit weird. I also want to apologize for the very noticeable mouth sounds in the audio. I have a very sensitive microphone. Since I’m sick, my throat is hurting and my mouth is very dry, that’s why I have a lot of saliva.

I am extremely proud of this book and I’m expecting to finish it this year. I have been very distracted lately because of many personal reasons, so I haven’t really felt calm enough to sit down and write. I’m hoping that I will be able to collect myself soon. I have a one week autumn break, that’s in three weeks in which I hope to write a least another chapter. Writing has always been something that makes me calm and relaxed. I have so many ideas for tons of books. I want to write many at the same time, since I have numerous ideas. Writing many is not a problem for me, I love writing, and if I have an idea, why should I wait, I can write the idea down and continue when I feel like writing more, that’s why I have lots off first chapters in tons of folders.

Something that inspires me the most is old fashioned English from the 19th century. I love how formal everyone was to each other, picking out their words with respect. I love to speak formally, but I don’t like dressing formally, like all the women did back then, but I love talking, story telling and explaining about fascinating people with my words. There is this movie that I watched just yesterday called “Enola Holmes”, about a young girl “Enola” who was searching for her missing mother, while using her sleuthing skills to outsmart her big brother Sherlock Holmes. This movie has inspired me a great deal, and given me a ton of ideas. I should say that I am obsessed with the 19th century English and history about that time, in England. I’m not the best at history, but only when it comes to the 19th century, in England of course.

People have asked me why I don’t write a book in Swedish since I’m Swedish. Mainly because I love English, my favourite language, also because if the book gets published many could read it because I’m pretty sure that everybody learns English in school and they take it with them through life. But the full reason is because I want to – Simple!

I haven’t come up with a title for the book yet. In my opinion, the title of a book is one of the most important things since that title attracts attention of the reader. If the title wasn’t interesting you would never pick up the book in the first place. Sometimes the title can be quite boring or too long etc, but the cover could be really cool and amazing and really attract attention, but I want both to be good and eye catching.

There is a point in the reading were I’m supposed to say “you don’t expect wings” but something happened with the audio that made the “expect” disappear, so you know that I meant to say “expect”. Please tell me what you think of it, if you think I should continue, anything I should change? But like I said, I’m very very proud, and I hope you think the same of it as I do.

Introduction and first chapter

Three new Original Songs!

Here are three new original songs that I have made. The first one which is called “but I’m happy now”, I made by using my own lyrics and adding it to music that I found on a YouTube channel called “unfinishedsongs”. It’s a channel that makes a random beat with guitar, drums, piano and more and you can put your own lyrics to it. The second one “Your psycho” I made by using a free rap beat from a channel call “AngelLaCiencia Beats”. It’s a channel that just like “unfinishedsongs”, makes random beats but it’s for rap. This one is really…I should say, weirder than the others. I decided to add opera in the middle of the song, witch made it weirder, but kind of cool. The third one “Power”, I made by using a beat from “MTC Beatz”. That do the same as “AngelLaCiencia Beats”. “But I’m happy now” is a very casual chill song, which has a very good meaning. It’s about: things might not have been great and they probably won’t be super good in the future, but you’re happy no, so don’t waste that moment. The others don’t really have a super powerful meaning, I just did a freestyle rap, and I was just in a “let’s be crazy and make weird songs” mood. I basically just pressed record, and started rapping to a funky beat, which didn’t turn out to shabby. I have written many lyrics but never added music properly, and since I was in this weird mood, I wanted to do something on the spot, that’s why I made three songs at the same time.

I hope you enjoyed listening to them, and please, like I always say, give feedback, it always helps me develop, and I also just like to hear what other people think. I’m becomes sick, or my throat is a bit sore and my nose is a little clogged up so that’s why I’m not singing the best. You might hear at the end of “But I’m happy now” the high note is slightly of, so you know why. I just wanted to post it because, well I just wanted to. Hope it’s not to awkward.

But I’m happy now by Equate, music from “unfinishedsongs”.
Your psycho by Equate, music from “AngelLaCiencia Beats”.
Power by Equate, music from “MTC Beatz”.

My nightmare

This is one of my worst nightmares when I was younger. I used to have this dream quite often, but after a while it stopped. I’m not too sure what the dream stands for, I’ll probably figure it out one day. It’s one of these dreams that’s really hard to explain. I decided to make it into a short story to make it easier. I don’t know why I had it, but it was very unpleasant. I’ve had many strange interesting dreams which are all worth sharing and writing down. So look out for another one! I’ve always been fascinated by this dream even though it’s quite barbaric. Maybe it’s because I haven’t figured it out yet. When I say that I used to have this dream quite often I mean that I would have periods with a certain amount of time, like 1 week, 2 weeks or maybe even a month. And then it would go away and come back. Like I said, it’s very hard to explain, but I think I’ve done it quite well. I would like to hear your point of views on the dream. Why you think it stopped or why you think it continued for so long etc. Basically your feedback.

The Rope. My nightmare.

I slowly opened my eyes, noticing the unfortunate darkness. I’m breathing particularly slow. A thick layer of silence consumes the area. Wanting to move, but have no way to do so. An uncomfortable feeling gets me confused. The room was dark, or at least what I thought was a room. Only a little bit of light makes its way through a small opening in the wall. I couldn’t see if it was a window or a crack. Right in front of me lies a thick rope. Still no sound. It feels like hours have gone by. Suddenly, the rope starts to move. Within a blink of an eye, it wraps around me, tangling me into a knot. It all happens so fast, but at the same time extremely slow. I’m tangled up, feeling completely captured, I can’t even breathe now. Then, it reverses. It goes back the exact same way as it did when it tangled me. The rope is now in the same position, lying right in front of me as it did before. The same thing happens over and over again. It confuses my mind, gets me dizzy, overwhelmed, frightened, and the list goes on. It feels like this event never ends. It never stops. Finally, I sit up. My body is shaking, it’s like I just experienced something totally horrific. It takes me a moment or two to fully realize that it was just a nightmare. I lay back down in bed. Hugging my pillow tight, hoping that I’ll just go back to sleep again.